Regret

I don't think you can live a life with "no regrets." I understand the concept that as humans, we make mistakes, and those mistakes can be learned from. I realize that every choice, including the bad ones, got me to where I am today; made me who I am. But I have lots of regrets.

I regret not listening to my parents when I was a teenager. I regret words that cannot be taken back, I regret trusts that I have betrayed, lies I've told. I regret anything I have ever done to cause someone else to feel pain...be it intentional or not. I regret harboring bitterness and anger, I regret robbing myself of happiness for years. I regret not focusing more in high-school. I regret quitting things, I regret not quitting other things. I regret having to say sorry for the same thing more than once.

I own these regrets, I can come to them and remember the instances, the feelings associated with it and hope they help me not to make more moments that I will regret. I am not finished. I am still working on me. But I am working, I am fighting, I have the will and the drive and tools to succeed in becoming the person I have the potential to be. I hope one day I wont have to say I'm sorry. Unfortunately, that day is not today.

But I am happy. I am happy that I have empathy and compassion, I am happy that I am able to see when I am wrong, I am grateful I can learn from moments I regret. I am most thankful that the people in my life love me enough to forgive me those moments, and know that I love them and do the same for them.

I have so many beautiful reasons to be ... Happy. :)